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hehe lookies...
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ERR... SUPPOSE TO BE BARNEY DAY... -SNIFF-
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frendiesss
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yay heres more
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more frendies. omg its getting so crowded...
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Gone Mad and Mood Swings

I have officially gone mad. Something is seriously wrong with me. I think I have some disease to do with emotional-ness. So I like overreact and cry for stupid reasons. I get mood swings, first I’m mad then I’m sad then I’m happy. Ok, so I sing and when I just pour out how I feel I get this great loving feeling when I’m singing. So I started out singing some song I know then I started making lyrics up, then I went to a whole new rhythm and a whole new song. Then I sang about killing people who cross me and I started squeezing stuff and scratching myself since I was so mad. Then I was like loosening my grip and sing happy <3 songs. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, something is. It’s strange, the madder I get, the better I can control my anger.

I think something happened to me. Something had to, to make me change like this. I don’t know what… This blog is where my anger can be written. I always look forward to writing this stuff so that I can let go of what happened. But sometimes I just can’t tell even this blog, and the bad stuff are still stuck in my head.

I use to not get embarrassed and not really care what people think, but something is seriously wrong. Everyone is so critical. I really hate it. Everyone expects people to be perfect, and think that they are perfect. When they are just really selfish, and they don’t know what being human is. They should know that it’s really hard to live up to your friends or family. I hate people so much, and it is so hard to live with rules. I can’t take it.

Gina is acting strange. I just can’t talk to her as my best friend anymore. Something probably happened. She is starting to annoy me. But it’s not her fault, it mine. Because of my mood swings and my incapability to control my anger. Sometimes I just feel so mad. I wonder how I can take it, how I just can’t punch people. Then I think about that college crap. I just hate it. Why cant people just give free jobs and let us have free homes, free food, and free hotels? That’s all we need. If the price on food was lower, and the clothes then maybe it would be better. If people could just learn to live without a lot of money, maybe we could be equal.

Maybe there could be something different than just this hard world. Maybe there are actually other worlds. I bet that there are so many people like me that just do this, and they probably have no money, no lives, and no nothing, except for what they believe in.
~Strawberrys Blog~

Sisters and More Things With the Letter S

Well...

I don’t get anything. Why is everything so unfair? Why does my dad like my sister so much better than me? He is very mean and so is my sister. I hate it. He gave her a new cell phone for Christmas and she says that what I want for Christmas is expensive when hers was so much more money than mine, and it wasn’t even from Santa. She always gets spoiled and she doesn’t even deserve it. But I bet that I’ll get a present too, and those shoes, I hope. Why is everything so unjust? It’s because people in the world wish that they could rule. We are meant to share as equals, and that is why there is global warming, murders, and just bad people in general. Seriously, my sister probably just hates me, she never even looks at me, she yells at me when I touch her stuff. I just want to see her cell phone and she starts yelling at me. Yes I do have my own phone but she ALWAYS gets the better things, just because she’s the oldest girl. Usually the younger one gets more things right? Well that’s not true. I’m different, I get treated differently than most people and I don’t care. I don’t care what people think of me. I just hate it when the backstab me. Yes, I’m talking about my so called “friends.”

Since winter break is coming, and the yearly Tech Museum field trip is tomorrow, we got and gave our presents today. I got like a bazillion (or jillion) or knee high socks. I also got this cute peek-a-pooh like charm and a lot of candy. I gave out giant Hershey bars to my friends. I forgot that I had forgotten people so I felt a bit guilty.

Now it’s time to talk about the S word. I would type it out loud but just in case someone finds this blog… Okay, so I wear short shorts and long socks to school a lot, and that doesn’t mean that people should call me the S word. At least I know I’m not and at least they know that they are S’s and B’s. Seriously, the totally are. They backstab, wear makeup, hump poles, and smother guys. Lol.

Oreos new name is now Teddy Bear. Teddy Bear because in pixie year, a guy asked me out and gave me a teddy bear. It was really sweet but… yea. Ok so moving on, I never see him anymore (both of the guys). Teddy bear giver went to Korea. Teddy Bear has gone missing, and I have no idea where he went. I probably don’t like him anymore… Oh well.

~Strawberry's Blog~

What is Happening to the World?

bWhy is everything so suckish. I think I am getting weaker. My punches arent as strong as before. Why is everyone so mean and trying to be one of those so called "popular" people. I you ask me (which you didnt), why everyone is acting like this, ill tell you why. Its because THE WORLD IS ENDING, global warming, death, wannabes. This is all a sign telling us to get over stuff and realize that what we are doing is stupid.

Ok. So the better I am at hearing people think, the worse I am at making people feel better. I use to be good at that stuff. It was so easy, now its so hard, and everyone is sad this year. Something is going to happen, I can feel it.

Your always born to do something in the world, but you never know what it is. You can tell that its so important, but if you dont start to fly, then your probably going to be at those drug stores selling cotton candy. Everyone needs a push, and people to stick by them. No one cares though, so whats going to happen? We all die sooner or later, so it doesnt matter if you get killed, drown, commit suicide. Everything ends.

People should be nice to each other because it would really hurt if you remember what they did to you forever until the day you die. If I wouldnt get in trouble, then I would beat up everyone I know just to make sure they dont screw with me, well most of the time they dont, but yea, most of the time. But then, if no one got in trouble, then everyone would do it.

What is going to happen...?

~Strawberrys Blog~

What is,,, UP??

I cant believe Gina is so stupid. Ok, so about the backstabbing, they kept on following me when I talked to Elle. When they were like 3 inches close, I said loudly just so they could hear. "Oh yeah ang Gina and Melissa are feeling sorry for me and its really annoying."

Then the next day, I was talking about her shitty friend ness and she was like,"Oh but I thought you were backstabbing me, I heard my name." I said,"I only said that because I knew you were listening." ISNT SHE SO STUPID??!!!

Something is wrong with me. Its kind of like... well if I told you, youd think I was crazy. Its like... something I cant tell my family or my friends. I know they just wouldnt believe me. Nobody would. And they would probably think I was looking for attention, or just plain weird. I hate that so much. So I have no idea who to tell.

Ok. So like when I talk to someone, its like I get a connection, and I know what they are thinking, I cant control how I act arround them, so I act bad and annoying. Then... I can kind of hear it in my head... what they would think... and... I dont know what to do because I think I have gone mental.

Everyone has something to tell them, someone has been talking behind their back right? You can just tell. But sometimes, someone is just so unpredictable that you have no idea what they are saying, and you tell yourself you should trust them. But I cant trust them, since they are just a group of gossiping bitches.

So during P.E, Kaishvi was like, "Melissa you ok?" Then Melissa shook her head and she did that stupid hand thing while she pointed to me ( its like when you lift your hand, and you point to your hand in the direction of the person you are "secretly" pointing at) And then Melissa went over to Kaishvi to talk about me.

I know Im better than her and ive been through a lot so I know it would be annoying if I asked her what she was talking about. She doesnt know anything. LIKE RIGHT AFTER I TALKEED TO ELLE SHE WAS LIKE, WHAT DID YOU TELL HER? That was so annoying. So I knew that I shouldnt ask her, no matter how curious I was. Sometimes, you just have to mind peoples privacy.

Why cant anyone understand that? Why are they so stupid? Shallow? Selfish?

I know that everyone is like that, and you cant change them.

I feel like im meant to do something in the world, something important, but I also know, thats never going to happen. I think I may be scared of something, but I dont know. If there werent rules I would be fighting at school a lot. And I would show everyone who I am inside. Because if they screw with me, I will kill them.

~Strawberry's Blog~

Backstabbers... And More About Backstabbers

Ok. So today I needed someone to talk to, someone not in my group so that I could tell them what is wrong with me. So yeah, I just went up to Elle and told her about my problems. Some of my group started to follow me and then I kept trying to run away and tell Elle what I was going to say. Then I told her stuff, and went back to my group. They were all like, BACKSTABBER!!! Bitches, they thought I was backstabbing them. What crappy friends right? Then Melissa was like, in that soft annoying voice, what did you talk to her about? I was like, I cant tell you. She was like, why? I said it was because you are in the group and that its so much easier to talk to other people than you guys.

Gina started ignoring me, she’s not really good at it since no one really includes her. I know people so well. When I was born, there was something, I think it’s the moon, and it gave me an ability to sense things, like get a connection with things. LOL. Ok anyways we said something, I forgot what… and she said, oh I thought you were backstabbing me. I said, you’re a really crappy friend if you think I talk behind your back. Then she was like, I know. Look how modest Gina is…

Other things:
I think Sandy likes Kevin. She always talks to him and I think I’m feeling a little jealous. Rebecca is such a wannabe, but I don’t really care about her anymore just talk to her when she talks to me. This sucks so much… I’ve been through so many stages of life and I cant even get to the most important one. I am going to look at illnesses and see which one fits me the best. Just to let you know, I have anger management. Punching bags help a lot. Its so good, you know? Strengthens you and helps maintain your anger. Kate is annoyed at me, I can tell, She is also feeling bad. Courtney is annoyed at me I don’t like her so that doesn’t matter. Gina is feeling glum because everything is so boring. Melissa is feeling left out because she too probably thinks that I was backstabbing her too since I wouldn’t tell her what I told Elle.

I really hate it when people feel sorry for me. Today I cried because … well I don’t know why and Kate was like, look she’s crying, and then everyone looked at me. Now that was freaking annoying. So then Melissa was like, let’s go to the bathroom ok? I thought that was really nice of her. When I came back Joanne was like, oh she stopped crying. She was probably thinking, wow that was quick.

I also hate people who give negative comments about my style. Like omg, I know they are fat and they are just jealous that they cant fit in my clothes. Lol. I was laughing on the inside. And what I also hate more than that, is when my friends don’t defend me. Now that’s a crappy friend. I mean like just say, well I like it, instead of just watching and saying, OH ITS OK, and patting me. THAT IS SO STUPID! IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE SOME FREAKING RETARD WHO IS GETTING MADE FUN OF!

Anyways… bye for now.

~Strawberry~

koreans and other stuff

The Korean people in my class are really starting to annoy me. Like omg, they talk like hell in korean and its so annoying

chi cho koko wuuhhh. I mean seriously. Ever heard of english??

I use to sit behind one in my Chinese class and I was just talking to one of my friends, when he was like, shut up seriously! Hypocrite!!! Hes the one who talks like WWHOOAA and he cant say that to me. NUH UH. Also my science class has some field trip to the tech musuem, mommy's chaperoning. lol. MMOOMMMYY TOTALLY ROCKS!!! She buys McDonalds for my group but thats the prob, because last time I had Brian in my group and he told his freinds that my mom is so awesome. So then they signed up to be in my group and all of my real friends cant be in it. But I just put Gina's name in it so that i wont be left out. But Mr. Ibanga will probably say no, once he finds out. But if I could choose between Micheal H and Gina, guess who ill choose??? GINA. For those stupid people who dont know.

Lol. Dont assume that I think Korean people are annoying, no, I actually think they are good looking (hehe dont call me boy-crazy) and funny. But omg these ones are just way too hypocritical.

Rebecca (aka racer, i finally remembered her name) is trying to steal Gina. Rebecca is a cheapo and only gives good presents to american people and gives the crap she doesnt like to the friends she had for a long time. Bitch. I dont like her. but yea keep your friends close and your enemies closer. Geee, I hope no one at school finds this blog... lol. Oh well. If someone did, I wouldnt care, Id give them a punch and tell the principal that they tried to hit me. But Omg. If they did hit me and I wrote it in my blog then, then, then, then, he would know... and say that im lying. I also dont like Courtney Shults. Shes just, I dont know I just dont like her.

What I really hate is when asians try to be sluts. It doesnt work, and it doesnt make people like them anymore.

Melissa is really annoyed at Sandy, and Sandy is really annoyed at Melissa. Im annoyed at both of them. Im annoyed at Melissa because she just wont grow up, like mentally. Also that she thinks people are copying her, as long as she knows she started it whats the prob? But like me, she gets upset, and starts thinking, OH NO ONE UNDERSTANDS!!!! Ive been through that stage. Gosh, just hurry up or your friends wont wait for you. Rebecca said that Melissa shouldnt hang out with the Trina, Jienne, Courtney, Audrey, Peoples group because no one there likes her. That fucking bitch of a backstabber. Anyways, I think that bitch isnt a bad word, so what??? Its just a girl dog, nothing wrong with that. Right??

My sister make me so mad, but I try to restrain myself from swearing about her since people might find out about it. She makes ME SO FREAKING MAD!!!!!

Happy Thoughts:

-Death Note-

Matt and Mello are so cute together. I keep on reading fanfiction.net about them, and watching Youtube videos about them too. So cute. Anyways, I wish I oculd just move. Everything is just too boring.

Oreos, also known as Rockband -new name- didnt show up at school for two weeks... But the next day... I saw him and his brother at a restuarant after the holiday parade. :) Strange how things work out right? Im not even sure I like him. Thats why im going crazy. 0.0

Also Kevin (also known as: Car, Van, Bin,) looks at me sometimes... maybe i really am going crazy. He's in my math class, I almost forgot about that. I wrote my name in every single book in that class. ... just something to remember me by...

I am eating chili soup (from Quiznos)

I just dont get why everyone wants to interview me for Yearbook... Even if I get a million interviews, ill probably wont be in a lot anyways... My style, sports that I do, and things that I think are the questions they throw at me.
"Hey what do you think of your taste in clothes?? Long socks? Why? Dancing huh? Wow also Jujitsu??? -my thinking about (school dances) - I love it when the guys act stupid and try to show off in front of us. Ist funny. -:P face- -makes comment about boxers-

Anyways... I love the sky, and climbing to it. Sometimes... dont you just want to fly???

Shopping

Well, today was black friday at the mall and also my dad's birthday, so I gave him a teddybear that I made in woods class.

The mall was fun except I didnt buy anything except for food. All I got was a plastic bag from Charlotte Russe. That was sad. And black friday is the day when everything is on sale!! I MEAN EVERTHING!!!! SAd Sad

... She Died

http://www.mercurynews.com/ci_11081014?source=most_emailed

My mom is the M.C (master of ceremonies) for a pageant and that was one of the runner ups. My mom is really sad, and I am too. She was really pretty and it was really sad...

The guy who shot her is crazy. How could he do that? She was such a good person, saving her children first. Now I know motherly love really means a lot.

Selfishness

I don’t get why everyone is just so selfish. They just think that OMG my life is worse than everybody’s. It’s so amazingly selfish when other people have to deal with the same problems. They always think, nobody understands. When they don’t. When everyone has to deal with this and that, and when they act like they understand the other person just says, NO YOU DON’T!!! It is annoying, it’s also really selfish.

These people… they just assume. You shouldn’t assume, you should try to know. I don’t get it. What’s wrong with them? You shouldn’t talk about these things. Well actually you should. But ok… everyone thinks about things, everyone has flaws. EVERYONE THINKS ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS AND TRIES TO FIX IT. You should never think that no one understands you because you think that. There is so much time in the world. If you have time, they have time. Sometimes you just have to think about other people too.
The truth is for me, ive been through everything before them, I had to deal with these things. They never thought of that, but then again maybe they did.

tHIS mONTH sUCKS

Read the Title. I cried today since my leg hurts. Ugh, and Melissa is feeling really down, also mad. Gina tried to help... but shes not really good at those things...

ill write later but now i have to go to melissa's blog

Btw

Gina (aka Gel) had her birthday planned today and I gave her a present. Only Joanne, Bathroom girl, and me gave her stuff. Crappy friends huh???

Crappy Friends who didnt give her stuff when she gave them candy: -

*im not saying their bad friends, just noting that they didnt give her stuff when she gave them stuff
~not bad friends but didnt get her anything

-NEVERMIND-

I WROTE THEM DOWN ALREADY BUT NOW I DONT WANT TO PUT UP THEIR NAMESV

And if you dont get someone something, you dont have the right to have that person give you stuff.

Worst day... almost the worst day

Ok. So remember when I told you that I got mad and poured water on some guy's head?? His name is Bird and he tried to get payback. He tried to pour soda on me but luckily only got my neck. So when I tried to pour water back, he kept on running, so Car, he ot my water bottle and tried to pour it on Bird's head. Too bad, Bird is fast. I never knew. He always seemed so slow... Chubbiness. I dont want to write bad stuff about people so ill try to stop from now on.

Anyways, unfortunately, Bird sits next to me in Language arts class so he was like:

Car likes you.

I was like:

No he doesnt. Why do you say that?

Bird:

Because he poured water on my head.

Me:

Who wouldnt?

End of conversation.

Ok then the next day he told Kelvin (not even going to bother with these code names anymore) that Kevan or... Kevin liked me so then Kelvin told me and I was like:

No he doesnt.

Then my friends who sat behind me, they were talking about it and...

Well... im not sure but i think... Kevin cried... Or Kevan. (ruined moment with wrong name thing)

Cute huh??? Maybe he's emo, I always had a thing for them. Sensitive guys are so cute. But that was really mean what Richard did...

Remember when I said that I might like Kev??? Well, now that is totally ruined. And thats why I never tell anyone who I like. It just gets ruined. But wait, dont think I told Richard who I like. No. I didnt, I hate this so much.

Why is everyone so mean???

Total guys I made cry and reasons:

2. Jung Jae Park and Kevan/ Kevin Cha.

Jung Jae asked me out and I rejected.

Ok now why Kev cried, that wasnt my fault. but... whatever

Facebook and Food

I really dont like facebook, I dont even know why I have one. Now all my friends have them, I use it for homework and stuff... and like status' are cool. But ugh. Its all ok... I guess I should get a myspace. Actually, Gel made me one already. Gel... shes feeling down I guess, and she really hates the group just like me. Somethings wrong...

Updates:

I like Oreos, Car, and the anime guys but anime guys arent real... so that doesnt count.

Jam, Jello, Otter are out... Oh yea and just to mention... Car is Jam's brother...

I think I might also like Oreos brother... NNYYEEEAAA. No way.

Oreo and Stuff

... I think Oreo tickled me... is that weird??? like he tickled me... cute but lol. ok so he tickled me and smiled, I smiled back then left...

My sister is such an S. And my last post, I had to go really quicklyand I totally forgot what I was going to say so I... yea. I have to go to my room or else shes going to see what im typing.

-picks up laptop- -goes to room-

Ok. So she tries to be nice but shes just really selfish. She just offered me a goldfish... Guilt trip.

I Hate This So Much

First of all let me tell you all the things my sister did.

She beat me, she framed me, she blamed me, she should go to jail for child abuse.

Today when I started -


end of post gtg

Mood Changes

I got so many mood changes today. I got really sad then started crying, then I got really happy, then I got mad and poured my water bottle on someones head.

In the end I was sad and started composing a poem about mood changes and my solitaire in this world. 0.0

This week is the worst week of seventh grade. The only thing good is Captain Hitsugaya. lol. But everyone hates me now for some reason, this backstabbing is going really crazy and I cant take it anymore, I just want to leave everything and ...
() ()
(X.X)
(__)o <---(Knife)---

No one ever understands. They never went through these things. They never had to deal with real anger management, or real sickness, or all those things that they say they go through.

They always pretend and brag ooouuu look at me im emo, I bleed. Real emos dont tell anyone and they secretly cry and they hate being it. Also just because you cut doesnt make you emo, emo means emotional and its not even suppose to be called that. I think its young depression.

Cake f****** hates me now. Cake that fucking poser. I dont even know why. Maybe someone told her something. Theres a traitor in this group.

Whoever it is, I will make her die. I will make her life miserable and show her that even death wont come until she deserves it.

But I think, maybe its good to die.

Dont you??

Facebook Sucks

The things i never wrote about

last thursday i went to a sharks game

saturday i went to the mall

Not the type of person who...

Im not the type of person who cares about what people think.

Here are the suspects I have for writing that stuff about me. I just want to find out so I can stay away. lol. <3>

The people who compared friends on the 9th of November, The people who I never told my secrets to, The people in the group I hang out with:

forget it, im wasting my time. at least i know what they wrote about me isnt true. hehe.

Freaking Mad

Some fucking bitch is hating on me and I know its one of my so called friends . But whoever it is, shes really pissing me off. She says I fucking backstab everyone and now -fucking mad-

I WILL KILL HER!!

~strawberry~

This is what that person wrote:

Posted 7 days ago she used to be one of my good friends but she`s acting like a f***** b**** now. she is so secretive. i hate her now
Posted 7 days ago i thought she was my friend but she backstabs everybody
Posted 7 days ago i`ve heard her backstab everyone
Posted 7 days ago she gossips about everyone
Posted 7 days ago f*** you

my recent changes

my name...
green tea- ugh im so over it. now my new addiction is punching punching bags and Captian Hitsugaya. lol im so dorky but hes haawwwttt.
my blog name...
deathanddarkness.blogspot.com slipped out of my mouth so i had to change it
soamzinglynotperfect.blogspot was pissing me off

my socks...
they use to be black knee highs now they are knee highs with skulls

my shoes...
southpole to converse again

my emotions...
now i am hella pissed

Eating

Right now i am eating chile and cheez-it's.

Today I think ive fallen in... like, with Van. I dont know...

Wow, this entry was short.

Sweet Guys?? Inside sweet...

Car and Pen are actually pretty sweet guys. Even if Car doesnt give me food. Even if Pen gets mad really easily. Ok, well today I got really mad and kicked a trash can and all this trash came pooring out. Only Car and Pen picked it up, not even my so called "friends". See, thats the problem with having girls as friends, they are way too prilly and ewwwy to trash. And you know the jerks I was talking about? Well nothings changed, they are stil 100% still jerks. Except for maybe Pen... I guess theres always a sensitive side to guys but dont we all wish they could show it for once? And freaking Rice. OMG HE MAKES ME SO MAD. I even cried, and Cake still likes them. THEY ARE SUCH JERKS!!! Especially Rhyme, Rice, and even Cookie now. Shes turning over the dark side. Ok now that you know they are evil people, lets give the a name (I have a thing for doing that), ok Rhyme, Rice, and Cookie have a new name called:

BEEEEFFFFF JJEEERRRKKKYYY!!!!! -everyone claps-

Ok. I cant believe Cake can still hang out with them. They are so mean. And I cant believe I cried. OMG! WTF? I ACTUALLY CRIED. Now people will probably think im some baby. This other girl named Laundry said shed stay away from me with trashcans now. ha ha ha. (sarcastic) And I think I might like someone else now. Ok since im already using code names ill now use code names for my code names. So this new guy I like, his name is Leaf... since im drawing a leaf right now (also eating spaghetti)

NEW LIST OF JERKS WHO STOOD THERE WHILE PEN, VAN, AND I CLEANED UP MY TRASH:

rhyme
rice
tear
egg
friends who watched
They dont deserve uppercase letters. -laughing- what a punishment. (sarcastically of course)

I CANT BELIEVE CAKE LIKES THAT FRIGGIN RHYME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Such Boredom and What Happened to my use to be friends?

I use to love music more than so many things but I starting to like the quiet better. Heavy metal music doesnt help me when im sad anymore. When I cut myself, I always listened to heavy metal. After I cut, I put my tears on it and licked it. Then, I tied a red ribbon around it so no one would see. Gel, obviously, since shes my secret keeper.

Rhyme use to be my friend and now hes Cakes friend. Cake is really nice and funny these days but she hangs out with such jerks.

Jerks:
Rice
Pen
Rhyme
Egg
Nice Jerks in That Group:
Cookie
Tear
Van

I think im starting to like other guys. They are really sweet and funny. I also think that I might not like my other guys.

At first I thought it was seriously love. <-- I cant believe I said that. At first I thought it was really love right? But now, I dont know, its probably just lust. I really liked him and now there are so many other guys... (btw im talking about Oreo)
I dont want to say who I like because it changes so quickly and its hard to keep up. Gel really helps me, she hates the group too.

What to do...

I just went shopping for a long time and when I go back I had to do so much homework. Im reading Wuthering Heights and I have to write some thingy about it. Shopping was great since its like almost Christmas I guess there are a lot of sales. Not a lot to do. I wish I was younger so I could take bubble baths everyday because I had so much time on my hands. I WANT A BUBBLE BATH!!! Ok.

I tried looking for long socks but none of them were good. Hot Topic is the best store in the world. Too bad I didnt buy anything there. I will soon. I also saw these really cute shoes, they look like converse and they are like a foot tall, theyre so cool. I have to get them, I will. They were like 70 bucks. Omg I want them so badly. 0.0 Oh well maybe when I trash my "now" shoes.

Nothing to do Except blog about things

I just finished eating a Hersheys bar. It was good. I eat a lot of things. Ok so I think a lot and my sister keeps bugging me about being weird... I admit, I am weird but not freakish or anything.

My style sense always ends up copied. Ok like that thing i do with my shirt, you know (or maybe not), that take the bottom of your shirt and tuck it in the top thing. Next thing you know, Britney Spears is doing it. Also my long socks style. I wear it all the time and now, 8th graders and pixies start copying me. Also my arm warmers. My own friend took them and now shes like arm queen. Ok i know that i should be happy that im being copied, but its just sometimes annoying. Ok, like one time I was with my friends doing dares, I had this really great one and I told them and then, my my B friend was like saying that my other B friend made that up. She doesnt even know how to be funny! Oh gosh that B. And SO MANY THINGS OF MINE GET COPIED AND I DONT EVEN GET ACKNOWLEDGED FOR THEM!!! That makes me pretty mad.

Other times when I think about my mistakes is one when in first grade the teacher was doing this thing. In my gut I knew the answer but everyone else said four, when I knew it was two. Anyways I didnt want to get it wrong so I said four too when I knew it was two AND IT WAS!!! That wasnt much but it made me really really mad. >:(

Overreacting I know.

But some things you just cant forget.

The B's and why they make me mad Also other people I might mention

First of all theres this teacher aid that is like a total B. She ratted me out from going on Gaia. I mean if I was an aid then I would totally not do that. I would like befriend the students not B out and be teachers pet. Gosh that friggin B. Btw her name is Soapie.

Another B is this guy. Well if its a guy then he should be an A. So yea his name is Nickel and he totally underestimates my power of presidential. Everyone says I love you to their friends right (well only girls) and when I said it he was like L. Then I said I know youre jealous so I love you too. and he was like G. He doesnt even know his terms of wording people. Anyways hes a total F.

Okay and I also hate to say this but another person whos... (...!) is Cake. She uses this guy and once he knew she used him THEYRE FRIENDS! His name is Cookie. How unfair is that? She likes this jerk named Rhyme and he kind of likes her and her jeans dont even fit her butt. But I guess that personality thing is right. They like her because shes funny. I dont get why guys always like the wrong person. Ok like Melon shes my friend and this guy named Rice likes her when shes hella skinny. Also this B name Felon. She has the same name as Melon but shes older. She is sooooooo fat and ugh MEAN.

Otherwise those problems the people i talked about are pretty nice (except for Felon)

*note B's are ******* and B is *****. F is *** or ******. A is *** or ******* L and G are easy right? Just read it again.

Okay there are so many backstabbers in my group. Of course im one too. (but thats only because theres something to talk about). They backstab me, I backstab them. Its all a cycle.

Other Mentionables:

Jello- "Used to like" guy
Jam- "Used to like" guy
Cake- Funny friend
Melon- Nice friend
Gel- Secret Keeper
Sand- "Unable to backstab" friend
Racer- Competitive friend

I might get other people later.

Names And ... Names

Okay well I just wanted to get this clear Names:

Me- GreenTea
Otter- School #1
Oreos- School #2

Reason for this blog name- I like the darkness of the happiness and stuff. 0.0

Reason for this title name- I felt like it... :)

Note:
Otter is Osker Oreos is... well read the 2009 posts.
Blog name use to be deathanddarkness.blogspot.com but I switch names often so some people cant find it. :]
03/11/09 11:22pm

Keeping You Up To Date + A Little About Me

At my other school there's this girl I dont like named Tina. She, like many people, underestimate me. When people look at me they think im stupid or smart. When i look at them I think they are so similar and nothing special. Everyone loves me but i actually hate everyone. (Except family). I hate it that they dont know what I can do to them. For instance, I can totally kick their ass since I take jujitsu. Also i really love eating so they cant say im anorexic. They also cant say that im un-athletic since i got presidential twice and they never got anything at all. I also know that they are just jealous because I have nice clothes and im smart.

I like one guy from my school, and another guy from my other school. Ok in school #1 I kind of like this guy named *****, ok lets call him otter. And at my other school I like this guy named ... well I dont really know his name but I think its ****, oreo for safe-keeping. Otter is kind of nice and his friend asked me out in front of him, for him, and I said no since i didnt want to. Oreo is kind of nice and he walked with me for like 10 seconds and I thought it was really sweet, even if it wasnt much.

I really dislike the people i hang out with except for one person.

Ok. A Little About Me:

Name: Green Tea
I am a girl
I am asian
I tried to bring back dead people
My favorite colors are black, white, red, and purple
I really love bands like Death Cab For Cutie, Linkin Park, Flyleaf. and e.t.c
Sports are cool to me and eating when youre sad is for losers
Ive cut myself a lot and then realized that its way out of my league but I think emo guys are cute
I love eating food like potato wedges, corn, rice, sushi, jelly stuff, and asian food ;)
Im eating corn right now
I am wearing Hello Kitty pajamas right now, awesome stuff you should get it too
I think its strange when people always say eewww when other people talk to them about those perverted things and they know they want to hear it
I also think its strange how "popular" people are "popular" just because they act slutty or they were asked out by some guy (not that true i was asked out)

There Thats It. Well I might have more to add. Maybe next time

Things You Night Need To Know

The important things to me are written in purple. The most important is in dark purple, the others are in light purple. Look Here: Most Important- Next- Next- Last.

I probably wont write everyday but I will is something happens.

11-09-08 6:59pm

11:16pm 03/11/09
Attention!! I do not do these -important light dark purple things- anymore but if there are some, then yes, hat means it is important

Welcome

Hello,

This is my online diary where I will put life and secrets in. Most of this will all be very boring, but I need to remember these things as I might need to refer to them again.