It is so windy outside. I want to go out but my sister is like, no way. So im just sitting at home watching Americas Next Top Model and eating Vege Straws.

Yesterday there was a Cornation that I danced for. I feel as if I danced bad...
Of course, yesterday was Saturday so I saw him. He sat behind me as always but didnt pay much attention to me. I feel kind of sad now. No happy memories.

Rebecca is stealing Gina again. And Gina is being... Well to me shes being a bad friend. I need a real friend. Melissa is a great friend but Gina is just, she doesnt know how to make people feel better and she isnt a friend I can depend on to help me when Im upset. I cant depend on anyone these days. No one can make me feel better.

I like reading books.

I feel different. Something is wrong with me, not the people around me. I know everyone can be sweet, but they just choose to be... gross.

Whenever I think of him or see him, I just cant stop... I want to touch his face and hold his hand. Then, it stops and Im back to normal, just talking. I feel better when Im not at EngSchool. I just really hate the people there. Everything is so boring. Nobodys mean but everyone is trying to be different, when theyre not. Everyone gets jealous and backstabby and... Well I guess even my friends have to try and be superior. I need new friends.

I wish that when no ones in the school, I think.. SOMEONE JUST BOMB IT ALREADY.
But only when no one is near the school. Radiation... o.o

Breathe... Just breathe...

The weather is so beautiful. I go to the grave and put the flowers near it. but there are so many dead flowers and with rain and dirt next to it, worms have come underneath it. There are blossoms on the ground from the tree in my backyard and it couldnt look more pretty.
Such strong wind. The Greek Gods are so interesting.
Bye bye for now. :]

~Strawberry is looking at wind, Ends post here~