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Teddy Bear asked me if I lost a pencil and I was confused so I said yes. Then he said he had it but not today. I think he took it, not I lost it. He started wandering around my group and talking to me. My friends started laughing every time he talked to me. RAWR D:<. It’s so strange; he talks to me and follows me around. I notice things about him. He’s funny, he sleeps in class. He traced his finger on the back of my shirt and asks me a lot of questions. He seems to sit behind me all the time. I always smile for no reason when I’m thinking about him. I know that’s really stupid. I wonder how old he is. I wonder what his last name is. He knows mine. Then there’s that other guy, I don’t know about him but he always makes me happy. He’s not that funny but he’s really something special. Well my mood changes have been getting really out of hand and sooner or later something bad is going to happen.These bitchy behaviors from a few of my friends are really starting to annoy me. I know I shouldn’t be annoyed but it’s really stupid. Cutting is really stupid and most people who do cut just want attention to show off their scars. Some other people do it but they really are just sad. I get really mad when people abuse the word emo. They make it sound like emo and emotional are two different words. It’s stupid and nothing is good about it.

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There are so many things I hate about people. What’s not to hate?? Even though I’m a person too. People are like books, if you don’t rip them apart, you can see how good it actually is. Everyone hates each other and there’s always something wrong. Sometimes, you know what’s wrong but it’s just too hard to fix it. And when you know you made a mistake, it’s too late right?

Selfish people don’t even know what they are and what hurts people around them. Selfish people make you hold stuff when you have no hands; they take your things without asking and don’t even give the other person something in return. They will end up killed and tortured with their hair ripped out and their just a little flab of skin to lie in their coffin. xD

If somebody asks you if you think they are selfish, they are. Everyone is. You just can’t help it. Maybe if we were inhuman, we can be better, or worst.

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Gone Mad and Mood Swings

I have officially gone mad. Something is seriously wrong with me. I think I have some disease to do with emotional-ness. So I like overreact and cry for stupid reasons. I get mood swings, first I’m mad then I’m sad then I’m happy. Ok, so I sing and when I just pour out how I feel I get this great loving feeling when I’m singing. So I started out singing some song I know then I started making lyrics up, then I went to a whole new rhythm and a whole new song. Then I sang about killing people who cross me and I started squeezing stuff and scratching myself since I was so mad. Then I was like loosening my grip and sing happy <3 songs. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, something is. It’s strange, the madder I get, the better I can control my anger.

I think something happened to me. Something had to, to make me change like this. I don’t know what… This blog is where my anger can be written. I always look forward to writing this stuff so that I can let go of what happened. But sometimes I just can’t tell even this blog, and the bad stuff are still stuck in my head.

I use to not get embarrassed and not really care what people think, but something is seriously wrong. Everyone is so critical. I really hate it. Everyone expects people to be perfect, and think that they are perfect. When they are just really selfish, and they don’t know what being human is. They should know that it’s really hard to live up to your friends or family. I hate people so much, and it is so hard to live with rules. I can’t take it.

Gina is acting strange. I just can’t talk to her as my best friend anymore. Something probably happened. She is starting to annoy me. But it’s not her fault, it mine. Because of my mood swings and my incapability to control my anger. Sometimes I just feel so mad. I wonder how I can take it, how I just can’t punch people. Then I think about that college crap. I just hate it. Why cant people just give free jobs and let us have free homes, free food, and free hotels? That’s all we need. If the price on food was lower, and the clothes then maybe it would be better. If people could just learn to live without a lot of money, maybe we could be equal.

Maybe there could be something different than just this hard world. Maybe there are actually other worlds. I bet that there are so many people like me that just do this, and they probably have no money, no lives, and no nothing, except for what they believe in.
~Strawberrys Blog~

Sisters and More Things With the Letter S

Well...

I don’t get anything. Why is everything so unfair? Why does my dad like my sister so much better than me? He is very mean and so is my sister. I hate it. He gave her a new cell phone for Christmas and she says that what I want for Christmas is expensive when hers was so much more money than mine, and it wasn’t even from Santa. She always gets spoiled and she doesn’t even deserve it. But I bet that I’ll get a present too, and those shoes, I hope. Why is everything so unjust? It’s because people in the world wish that they could rule. We are meant to share as equals, and that is why there is global warming, murders, and just bad people in general. Seriously, my sister probably just hates me, she never even looks at me, she yells at me when I touch her stuff. I just want to see her cell phone and she starts yelling at me. Yes I do have my own phone but she ALWAYS gets the better things, just because she’s the oldest girl. Usually the younger one gets more things right? Well that’s not true. I’m different, I get treated differently than most people and I don’t care. I don’t care what people think of me. I just hate it when the backstab me. Yes, I’m talking about my so called “friends.”

Since winter break is coming, and the yearly Tech Museum field trip is tomorrow, we got and gave our presents today. I got like a bazillion (or jillion) or knee high socks. I also got this cute peek-a-pooh like charm and a lot of candy. I gave out giant Hershey bars to my friends. I forgot that I had forgotten people so I felt a bit guilty.

Now it’s time to talk about the S word. I would type it out loud but just in case someone finds this blog… Okay, so I wear short shorts and long socks to school a lot, and that doesn’t mean that people should call me the S word. At least I know I’m not and at least they know that they are S’s and B’s. Seriously, the totally are. They backstab, wear makeup, hump poles, and smother guys. Lol.

Oreos new name is now Teddy Bear. Teddy Bear because in pixie year, a guy asked me out and gave me a teddy bear. It was really sweet but… yea. Ok so moving on, I never see him anymore (both of the guys). Teddy bear giver went to Korea. Teddy Bear has gone missing, and I have no idea where he went. I probably don’t like him anymore… Oh well.

~Strawberry's Blog~

What is Happening to the World?

bWhy is everything so suckish. I think I am getting weaker. My punches arent as strong as before. Why is everyone so mean and trying to be one of those so called "popular" people. I you ask me (which you didnt), why everyone is acting like this, ill tell you why. Its because THE WORLD IS ENDING, global warming, death, wannabes. This is all a sign telling us to get over stuff and realize that what we are doing is stupid.

Ok. So the better I am at hearing people think, the worse I am at making people feel better. I use to be good at that stuff. It was so easy, now its so hard, and everyone is sad this year. Something is going to happen, I can feel it.

Your always born to do something in the world, but you never know what it is. You can tell that its so important, but if you dont start to fly, then your probably going to be at those drug stores selling cotton candy. Everyone needs a push, and people to stick by them. No one cares though, so whats going to happen? We all die sooner or later, so it doesnt matter if you get killed, drown, commit suicide. Everything ends.

People should be nice to each other because it would really hurt if you remember what they did to you forever until the day you die. If I wouldnt get in trouble, then I would beat up everyone I know just to make sure they dont screw with me, well most of the time they dont, but yea, most of the time. But then, if no one got in trouble, then everyone would do it.

What is going to happen...?

~Strawberrys Blog~

What is,,, UP??

I cant believe Gina is so stupid. Ok, so about the backstabbing, they kept on following me when I talked to Elle. When they were like 3 inches close, I said loudly just so they could hear. "Oh yeah ang Gina and Melissa are feeling sorry for me and its really annoying."

Then the next day, I was talking about her shitty friend ness and she was like,"Oh but I thought you were backstabbing me, I heard my name." I said,"I only said that because I knew you were listening." ISNT SHE SO STUPID??!!!

Something is wrong with me. Its kind of like... well if I told you, youd think I was crazy. Its like... something I cant tell my family or my friends. I know they just wouldnt believe me. Nobody would. And they would probably think I was looking for attention, or just plain weird. I hate that so much. So I have no idea who to tell.

Ok. So like when I talk to someone, its like I get a connection, and I know what they are thinking, I cant control how I act arround them, so I act bad and annoying. Then... I can kind of hear it in my head... what they would think... and... I dont know what to do because I think I have gone mental.

Everyone has something to tell them, someone has been talking behind their back right? You can just tell. But sometimes, someone is just so unpredictable that you have no idea what they are saying, and you tell yourself you should trust them. But I cant trust them, since they are just a group of gossiping bitches.

So during P.E, Kaishvi was like, "Melissa you ok?" Then Melissa shook her head and she did that stupid hand thing while she pointed to me ( its like when you lift your hand, and you point to your hand in the direction of the person you are "secretly" pointing at) And then Melissa went over to Kaishvi to talk about me.

I know Im better than her and ive been through a lot so I know it would be annoying if I asked her what she was talking about. She doesnt know anything. LIKE RIGHT AFTER I TALKEED TO ELLE SHE WAS LIKE, WHAT DID YOU TELL HER? That was so annoying. So I knew that I shouldnt ask her, no matter how curious I was. Sometimes, you just have to mind peoples privacy.

Why cant anyone understand that? Why are they so stupid? Shallow? Selfish?

I know that everyone is like that, and you cant change them.

I feel like im meant to do something in the world, something important, but I also know, thats never going to happen. I think I may be scared of something, but I dont know. If there werent rules I would be fighting at school a lot. And I would show everyone who I am inside. Because if they screw with me, I will kill them.

~Strawberry's Blog~